After passing the horror that is the 12th standard, I was caught by a dilemma. Actually, it wasn’t quite a dilemma because I knew that I hated biology, and so a future in medicine was completely ruled out. Engineering was a good option, and I knew that I had to go for it.
But, the dilemma came in the form of which engineering stream to choose. Earlier, when I had been studying for competetive exams like JEE, AIEEE etc, I had not really considered this particular aspect. I was inherently interested in chemistry (pure chemistry, mind you……definitely not applied chemistry!!!!…..we have had enough of that in FE). But, at the same time, I had also considered electronics as a pretty suitable future. To sum up…..I was extremely muddled up!
So it was that I went and applied to UICT. I had come to the temporary conclusion that I could get a seat for Electronics in Mumbai University if I wanted, so I wanted to see if I could have got one in UICT. However, I could get in, but not in the coveted Chemical Engineering branch. Though it was a fairly obscure branch (Food Technology), I thought I would give it a go. It seemed too good to be true that I was actually a part of the famous University Institute of Chemical Technology!! Two weeks it played host to me, and I was most pleased with the atmosphere there (one actually felt like going to the library and studying in their freetime!!).
So far so good. Then comes the turnaround. The CAP rounds had started, and I decided to check out what I had missed in MU by taking up UICT. Turned out that I could have got SPIT Electronics! If I was confused earlier, I was infinitely more confused then! What to choose? Should I leave Foods and go for Electronics, or should I forget the whole thing and stay happy with UICT? Finally I made the choice, and hung up my UICT boots.
The SPIT era begins. It was completely different as compared to UICT. People here were less geeky (in fact only one guy seemed to fit this adjective, and that was, and still is, Rishkul!!!) and more playful. I warmed up to this new atmosphere. I realized that the syllabus here was completely new, and involved idiotic subjects like applied physics and chemistry (in the first year, where the syllabus is common to every branch), as opposed to the purely chemical subjects in UICT. Like everyone, even I had my share of hurling well-chosen expletives at MU.
Then came the exams. The first semester exams had been hopeless. I had known right from the moment I had finished them, that I wouldnt have scored as much as I would have been expected to. I was right, of course. Result? 65%. Equivalent to FAIL!!! (by my own standards) I got blasted by my family and friends as always, and as expected, this had absolutely no effect on me, as I continued my ‘insolence’ and managed to get the exact same percentage (give or take a fraction of a percent) in the second semester exams as well! So basically I had finished up on an aggregate of 65.5% in my first year of engineering, when all my friends (and mark the word ALL…..no exceptions) had bounced up at least 3% or more than their first sem marks.
I was left thinking…is this what I really wanted from life? Had I made the wrong choice by leaving UICT and coming to SPIT? Was I giving electronics the justice it deserves? Was I screwing it up just like the guys in Five Point Someone? The answer was a resounding YES, and there was nothing I could do to avoid the truth.
But then, I realized, this was only the first year. The channelized ‘Electronics’ branch was going to start from the second year. And, looking back, the subjects I had scored the poorest were physics, chemistry, drawing and maths. Barring maths, I had done pretty well in all the other subjects, which would actually be needed for electronics. All the failures in these subjects seemed irrelevant in that revelation.
This is actually a new beginning, and this time, I have to pull myself together and make sure that I do not slip up. And believe me, this time I WILL RISE FROM THE ASHES!!!